I've gone to bed and awakened alone for 292 days.
I so miss her presence next to me at these times but would be lying to say I haven't had thoughts of wanting to be with a woman again.
But, I get queasy thinking about being with someone else intimately.
The absolute trust we shared allowed our intimate times to be amazing for so many years.
Obviously there's no way of knowing if I will ever find that again.
Many others are not so fortunate to have had what I had.
I spent 1/2 my life with T.
I'm actually sort of thankful for the queasiness.
It's helped me understand I'm not ready yet to pursue another relationship.